Look at your equity curve like a price chart. You want the slope to be positive and upward. What the trajectory? Your equity curve can help you target your goals.
Start by putting all your trades and the costs into a spreadsheet:
Column A is today's Date
Column B - Entry
Column C - Exit
Column D - Commissions
Column E - Fees
Column F - Final Balance
Then you can chart the last column against the Date - Columns A and F. Do that every day and update the chart. You can study the results at the end of the month.
Your Equity Curve shows you the efficacy of your process and trading rules. What does it tell you if you are afraid to create one? Not worth your time? My guess is that the truth might be hard to acknowledge and we can bullshit ourselves to eternity.
The first step in getting healthy and making better trading decisions is to discover your truth. Nothing illustrates a failed or successful attempt at trading better than an equity curve.
Drawdowns are not failure - they just delineate those times when your system was out of sync with the market. This will happen frequently, but if you've backtested your rules, stick with them as you'll trade yourself back to new highs by sticking to your rules.
I find that day traders are fearful of this process. Position traders will find that their equity curves make the biggest jumps. Let the market and leverage work for you and you'll see those efforts and results on your equity curve.